[Raptorfang]

I came up with this username a long long time ago, and as most people do with usernames they came up with a long long time ago, I have kinda outgrown it and have hated it for years now. However, it's since become not only the username I use on pretty much every site (on some of which I cannot change it) but also the name I have come to be known as (not really here on CS but very much so elsewhere), and so a part of me doesn't want to change it for those reasons. And also I like to keep my player name the same (or as same as I can make it) across all the sites I'm on so yeah. Idk. I have been trying to come up with some ideas for what I might change it to, mainly some cool words I like, but what makes things even more complicated is the fact that I get dysphoric over the stupidest and most illogical things sometimes, so trying to come up with a new name that I think is neat but also one that I know for a fact wouldn't make me dysphoric is a bit of a task. It's really frustrating and dumb because words don't have gender they're just words but my stupid dumb brain is all like "HMM idk champ seems kinda feminine to me" and it makes me real sad because, again, words don't have gender but despite all logic those nagging feelings still remain. I mean I know logically that obviously my username on Chicken Smoothie dot com does not and will not make me any less of a man, but idk. Dysphoria sucks.

@ whoever actually read all this: sorry lol, thanks for your time :')

[mean&gay]

i understand the frustration- not this exact thing, but the whole feelin dysphoric over seemingly small details, it's a huge bummer.

mayb it might help 2 just make a list of all the words, regardless of how masculine/feminine they seem, and then sorta pick out the most masc ones from that list? u could even take the 1s that seem more feminine and look 4 synonyms that feel more masculine, if u think that'd work.

whatever ur username ends up bein, u'll still b a Rockin Dude in my eyes. i hope u find 1 that fits, gamer (:

[Raptorfang]

i understand the frustration- not this exact thing, but the whole feelin dysphoric over seemingly small details, it's a huge bummer.

mayb it might help 2 just make a list of all the words, regardless of how masculine/feminine they seem, and then sorta pick out the most masc ones from that list? u could even take the 1s that seem more feminine and look 4 synonyms that feel more masculine, if u think that'd work.

whatever ur username ends up bein, u'll still b a Rockin Dude in my eyes. i hope u find 1 that fits, gamer (:

that's a good idea.. might do that

thanks gamer (':