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im so tired,,, my family keeps making fun of me for eating anything and i cant eat without thinking about what they say and even though im surrounded by so many people i feel so alone and everything just keeps piling up on top of each other and i just ?????????????? why am i like this hah,,,,,, no one wants me around and i dont want me around either i wish i could be literally anyone else right now i dont want to be here i dont want to be anymore i dont even want to exist!!!!!!! i feel disgusting and repulsive and terrible all the time i cant even look at myself without wanting to smash the mirror but if i did i'd get in trouble but im so tired of waking up and having to go through the same things everyday and having to look at myself and having to know i exist and be here!!!!!! i dont want to i dont want to i dont want to. im not allowed to take medication or get a therapist or get ANY help whatsoever no one even believes me no one thinks anything is wrong but what do my feelings matter right?????????? djwiqdjwiqjdwi m so tired i cant sleep until 4 am sometimes id ont sleep ta all i just dont want t o do it anymore i dont want to do anything anymore but no matter what i do i get yelled at or criticized and im so damn tired of it i cant do anTYTHIGN iwjwiqjdiwqjdwiqj im os ,,,,, infedwqdwiqjd fine fine finE fine fine fine im done im donE!!!!!!!!! dont even say anything none of it matters you dont mean it youre all liars so just LEAVE ME ALONE
