[Mortikat]

This is some vent art; Done with my new style of shading, if hurried and sloppily done.

Ugh. My boyfriend of almost a year (11 months; Were friends for like, 5 years before that) broke up with me 2 months ago. He moved off to a college not to far off and I'm here in our home town working a cleaning job.

I'm really, really confused about why I'm still so attached to him; He's on my mind CONSTANTLY and it always puts me in a sour mood. I hate it. I'm sad ALL the time. I never intended for another human being to be such an affect on my happiness, but it happened. Now I have no one in town I can even begin to relate to, and all my other friends drifted off. Normally it wouldn't be so bad, but one of my friends from school (I'm now graduated) is posting all the time about how great her relationship is, how much she loves her boyfriend, and all kinds of lovey dovey stuff in general and it makes me upset near to the point of crying. I've had so many issues since he left me. I've been more forgetful, I drift off into space more, I've been hurting myself more (I managed to slice the side of my hand on a window. WHO DOES THAT?!?!) and I'm adopting a very unhealthy relationship with my food. I hardly ever smile now, and I haven't found anything truly fun since he left me.

I've only seen him twice since we broke up; One time he hugged me. Its just... I don't know where we are with each other right now. He promised we'd still be friends but he hasn't responded to any of my texts hardly when he promised he would and the one time he saw me he never said a word to me. The other time he couldn't shut his mouth. I just... I don't know. I'm so confused and upset its not even funny.

I also want to send him a letter, since he's not answering my texts. I just don't want to sound clingy, overly attached, or sobbish and desperate. I don't know guys. I just don't.

;-;

The buffalo plush represents him, as the Buffalo is his spirit animal.

NOTE; Yes, Baruhk is a male, but I am female IRL. I felt he'd fit the vent better than Ana, as Ana is calloused, rough, and seemingly unfeeling while Bar has more emotions to him. Bar is also the visual representation of my own spirit guide(A little jazzed up from what he does look like) and I thought it would be better if our guides were together.

[laces]

I'm sorry Hae ;n; I understand how you feel. If you ever want help or to vent just pm me<3

[SukarettoYanagi]

I'm terribly sorry to here that. I may not be able to relate to you on this, but I can be here for you and try my best to support you through this. You're a friend to me, and I don't like seeing my friends upset. I'm always here to talk, alright? *hugs* Hope things get better and hope you feel better.