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Musings on my Nature in Love
Saphilia is my name
The meaning weaved of two words,
With a meaning to many
But many too few
Would know the meaning of my name
For so many liken the heart of love
With the passion and tender heat of a flame
My mother is the goddess of love
So I suppose I should know a thing or two
My childhood was in no way loveless
Filled to the brim with “I love you”
But a confession is
That I never really knew
The meaning of the words
Out of my lips, they just flew
I have always felt love, known it
But hardly have I known how
I spoke it
When I love, do I pray, lay, kiss, bow?
These questions haunted me
In truth,
They daunted me
I was born of and in love
It seemed completely wild
That this simple question
Would have me so riled
It led me to doubt
And to realise that doubt
Is the love-killer
At least its greatest, just about
For my love for myself weakened
When I no longer trusted
My own heart
And it rusted
No, not quite rusted
I pumped it, hammered it
Tried to spill out all its contents
For it to tell me, pouring out as I hit
How my love was spoken
Could you find my love in gifts?
The greatest gift of all, in my presence?
Was my touch my vessel?
My acts of selflessness?
With love all around me,
It is hard to see
Anything but it
Do you understand my plea?
The question of where
Does the love of all
Become my love, my flair?
But these are not words of despair
For the journey was pleasant, in truth
When I stilled, and stopped pumping,
And realised that in calm and soothe
I could find my heart again
Overworked and in need of
Someone who could translate it
And bring it the peace of love
In those moments
It became clear to me, like a breeze
That the language of my love
Is stillness and ease
The inherent peace and safety
Of a loving relation
The moments of ease in an
Otherwise busy, hectic world
The acceptance, open and ready,
For even these words, losing their rhyme.
My love language can have many forms,
vowels, spellings, vocals, speeds.
But common to it all is this
The moment of embrace
A smile that lasts a few seconds longer
The safety of accountability
To the truth of another person
The forgiveness
Of mistakes of which we all are kin
Protecting the space where
My loved ones develop their identity
And self, so that they
Can feel as at ease and in love with themselves
As I am
This is the essence
Speaking the stillness and ease
For others and myself
To be comfortable in their own skin
Because to me, there is no greater form of love
Than the room to soar and fall.
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