Username: VampireMessageNinja
Name: Hope in Tomorrow (Hope)
Gender: Mare
Prompt:
Hello there, I'm Hope!
Or well, that's what they usually call me. Rain always says that's just the shortening of the name she gave me for my personality and background. I always think that's a bit of an overstatement. But how about you listen to my story and tell me what you think about it? Don't worry, it won't take too long.
I was raised high up in the mountains by a wild horse herd. While I did, and still do, consider them my family I know that none of them are related to me. I was found as an orphan foal, barely clinging to life by the time the herd discovered me sitting at the edge of a cliff. While I don't exactly remember much from this early foalhood, I will never forget the feeling I had back then - A feeling of loss. Of having lost someone very dear to me, without knowing who. I like to think that it was my true family, because even though the thought makes me feel sad, it also makes me think that they had to have been great people that I looked up to.
I was in love with my home, spending hours and hours of my childhood rolling around in the fields of small pink flowers (Chamaenerion latifolium*) that littered the ground up there. My foster mother used to pick up some flowers and put them into my mane, telling me that I am her beautiful princess. Sometimes I dream of that.
The water from the small mountain springs is the best thing I have tasted to this day. Nowadays, sometimes when I drink from my bucket it feels like I am thrown back in time, my mind playing tricks on me, making me think that I am back there, sipping from the spring.The thought does make me feel a bit sad occasionally.
I quickly became friends with the mountain goats, the birds and even a snake. My foster parents warned me of the serpents who supposedly bit horses regularly, but somehow I was always lucky enough to get along with everyone. One of my herd friends, Crescent, always used to say that I am too nice and trusting for my own good and perhaps she was right.
The feeling of loss struck again a few years later, when my herd was rounded up and caught. Most of them I never saw again, only Crescent was taken to the same place as I. In retrospect, I wish I had been alone. Sharing the pain made it easier, but I wouldn't wish it on anyone. The farm owner was a horrible, horrible man with little regard for us. To this day I sometimes still go into panic attacks when my head or legs are touched and I couldn't be more greatful that Rain understands and is patient with me. It's not that I want to be this way, I have just been through so much that it's hard for me to trust. It's funny, considering I was once the very opposite of it.
But right, back to the story.
One day the man was gone and an old woman took his place, just like that. As if he had never existed. She smelled similar, perhaps she was part of his family. The woman was gentle and caring, but she had another major flaw. She was addicted to us, to the point where she took in more and more of us, eventually lacking the energy to care for us all. Yet she continued bringing in more horses. I really want to believe that she only meant well, but how would I know. Humans are hard to understand sometimes, I am sure even you know that.
Many of us died before what Rain calls 'authorities' took control of the situation and took us away. The last time I saw Crescent was as she was led away, her third young foal almost glued to her side. At the time she was almost as thin as her offspring, both of their furs dull and lacklustre, full of dirt, and sometimes I wonder if I looked the same.
Soon after it was like arriving in Heaven. Rain's farm was vast and open, friendly and full of light. I had been cooped up in the barn for a long time, the first time I got to eat grass again I wondered if I was just dreaming. It took a while until I managed to let Rain touch me at all and it was only thanks to my new friend Vanny, who never grew tired of explaining how nice a person this human was. That and the delicious carrots, a brilliant new discovery, won me over. I also discovered that I love having a shiny coat, being brushed makes me feel loved for some reason. It's almost like my foster mother rubbing my back lovingly. Rain, Vanny and the others are my new family now and while I miss them, I hope my herd members are fine, enjoying life as much as I am.
I am greatful for every experience I made along the way, the good and the bad, because they made me who I am. I know for sure that I am safe here and it's only due to my experiences that I can truly appreciate it. And perhaps one day I will have enough courage to allow myself to trust Rain completely. I know I want to, but it's hard. There's always hope in tomorrow, right?
* Fun fact: Those flowers, also commonly called dwarf fireweed or river beauty willowherb, really do grow in alpine and arctic regions and have even been observed going from completely frozen to thawed within a few hours without taking damage. Nature is exciting!








