“ Life is pain, darling. Anyone who says differently is trying to sell you something. ”
Username: Offended Cockatiel
| Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
........I'm getting old and I need someone to rely on
........So tell me when you're gonna let me in
........I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
........And if you have a minute why don't we go
........Talk about it somewhere only we know?
........'Cause this could be the end of everything,
........So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know? |
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"And there the children of dark Night have their dwellings,.........................
...........................................................................Sleep and Death, awful gods."
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... They ran and ran in circles, found and unfounded wrote:Hopping, skipping, the train surrounded by the nightly fabricated robes of the setting sun, a dark black scene embroidered with golden symbols just like stars, dragged across the floor and became an artificial reflecting image of the evening sky overhead. "Come and find me," the child's voice reverberated into the ebony of the night, and after it trailed a whisking ghost, eyes tired, echoing back the same words from right behind.
Name: Cyril Violet Bugspray
My first life was so boring just forget I mentioned it
And my second seemed to let me do all of the things my first life didn't.
Cyril's words wrote:"And, oh! They say I'm an old soul that lost its way when passing on... That the reaper looks for half of me with tender frisks upon the earth, wanting to reassure the old and the new that living or dead the world welcomes their wander/ers with open arms.
But, I've been told, That the aged and forever living part of me found a little vessel to apply its knowledge to, fearful of the world when seen with opened eyes.
That's why every part of me contradicts it's companion, that's why I reconcile the sight of places I've never been, that's why individual photographs remind me of the scent within the air, the breeze upon my skin, the sense of the turning world. They say the baby and the old soul are both searching for the meaning of the world together, creating monsters in their free time, fighting and reattaching like lovers unsure of what they are.
And, that's not really what they say.
It's what they mean, even beneath the sheets of matter overtop their brains, the meaning hides. That's not what they say.
But it's the truth."
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Gender: Demiboy
Adoptive parent(s): Haru Bugspray
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In three words I can sum up
everything I've learned about
life: it goes on.
The best way out is always
through.
--- Robert Frost
The past is gone, and cannot
harm you anymore. And while
the future is fast coming for
you, it always flinches first
and settles in as the gentle
present.
--- WTNV
Just slippin’ by the crazy world but ain’t it everyday?
I’m doing quite alright along with trying not to die
Rambling coaster throwing me around the whole day
What was that thing I shouldn’t have forgot again?
I can’t shake off the one true fact that almost everything
Is equal and my heart’s part of this dumb et cetera
Love or hate, clearly state, what you really find amusing
Refusing makes you seem just like a doll
Ah, people on their feet, nightly dragging through the street
Seems they’re passing by so happily but still a bit too sad for me
Contrasting everything it jumps around the score so musically, a song and rhythm are created
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" Don't ever take a fence down until you know why it was put up. "
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"Finding a bench, he sat, quietness his breath, and listened to the encroaching shadows of a being inside of him lurk almost silently, wondering how close to death it was... When he raised his head the world moved around him, before his gaze was life's ever listless animation, those items of recollection referred to as memories. So quick and clairvoyant that every part of such became a blur of vivid colors. Not a noise, nothing seen, nothing heard, nothing dreamed, two separate souls roamed beneath unsolicited sealed tight akin, hitting heads out of sightless misunderstandings, accidentally attacking the heart with pitiless self-help. Philosophers described them with delicate complexion, yet simply called them... happiness and depression.
And it all led to a tepid gaping hole forming from between the gauze planted deep within his wounds, which let the living thing inside of him peer out anticipating the next low cut gash to let freedom impeach its placement."
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" Come skin your knees with us,...................................
.......................................................Life is too short for a business lunch "
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" Happy Thanksgiving
guys. This year, I’m
most thankful for
the person without
whom my life would
be bland and
meaningless. They
bring color into a
dull world, and they
put a smile on my face
every day. I love
you, me.
Aw, me, I love you
too. "
It feels like walking has become another chore
I don't think I can go on walking anymore
So please forgive me for these words, I know they're
cliched to you
But life is tiring, my feet are getting sore
I wish that I could have a bit of time
To heal the ache that's growing stronger all the time
But I know time stops for nobody, let alone me
And so I go, inevitably
Whenever things are going rather happily
It turns out life is just playing a trick on me
It's slightly shameful to admit the truth, I end up
in tears
And so begins the same old melancholy
"Mmm… she’s
doomed! You’re
doomed!
They’re all
doomed! Notice
I didn’t specify
what kind of
doom, so no
matter what
happens, I
predicted it.
How very
wise of me."
I miss when life was just simplicity
And misery wasn't always chasing after me
It's pretty obvious now, I should've left my regret
But I held onto it so foolishly
Maybe I overreacted a bit, hasn't destroyed me
yet, has it
But everything I desire is always just too far to
get
Honestly, it's just me, brainlessly, so silly
Always hoping for good to be
If that's the case then just hear my plea
Pick me up and drop me into unfaltering sleep
You say to look hard for a solution, but wouldn't
that depend on the person
So I could never, no I could never believe a word
anyone says
I know that everyone has their hardships, it's fairly
clear to me that I'm not alone
But how is it that they can just leave them, I just
don't know at all
" HOW CAN THIS BE,
You’re stronger than I
thought, ETC. "
Often I'm told I need to clean up my act
Although maturity is something I lack
And so when some simple little problems arise
I overthink them over and over again
But it seems like the world is a troublesome place
And sometimes I feel like I should just end the pain
"You're sick, aren't you dear?"
I'm sick of the tears
Why can't everything just end simply
Everything I aspire to be, nothing that will become
of me
My expectations are too farfetched then what am
I to do
Give a sign, give a sign, a reason not to die
Give me a chance to prove my worth
I constantly search for a place to cry
Why won't these tears stop falling from my eyes
" Who cares
you’re going
to die anyway. "
It's hard to constantly think of the same things,
it's just unnecessary to think too much
You always told me stars would guide me back
home, but they only come out at night
You always showed me so much kindness, I don't
deserve it, I have failed you too much
I think my tiny heart is gonna split, please just
leave it be for now
Move far from me, just let me be
This winding road that I stumble on is never
going to end
It's getting difficult to maneuver, and there's no
use in trying to run away
So I hold my hands over my ears and try to block
out all the noise
How can I live not knowing what life is, sometimes
my dreams seem to be more realistic
Obviously I can't be called happy but then...
What am I after all
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" That doesn't matter darling, you could die at anytime. "
--- Unbreakable Kimmy
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I lost something, something precious.
(Gasp) Your innocence?
I'd say go to hell... But I never want to
see you again.
Yea, sure, I lost something. But I was never there with it, to know what I'd lost and what I'd gained in the first place.
What in our experience together makes you
think I have the ability to do that?
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" So what if a few people have to die?...................................
......................................................................That's show business baby! "
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Ding Dong
I know you can hear me
Open up the door
I only want to play a little
Ding Dong
You can’t keep me waiting
It’s already too late
For you to try and run away
There’s something more to this
That we have missed
Things around here are suspicious
Who can we put our trust in?
What have they all been hiding?
Secrets that lie in shadow
How much do they all know?
A place so full of mystery
Is just a puzzle to be solved
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" You mean you wish to surrender to me?...................................
.................................................................Very well, I accept. "
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... It points to the very clear lesson that bad guys have all the fun!
Cyril: My name will go down as greatest villain in history!
Friend[Someone, who cares?]: You mean our names, right?
Cyril: Of course, my name first, then, spacebar, spacebar, spacebar, your name.
Don't do it!You'd think I'd listen by now.
You can't do just whatever you want!Don't believe me? Just watch.
Cyril: Makin' my way downtown town, walking fast
Emotions: Hello
Cyril: Walking faster
Do you always deflect personal questions with jokes?Do you always deflect jokes with personal questions?
Cyril: HA! Got him with my subtle plan!
Friend[???]: I can't see any subtle plan!
Cyril: Hun, you wouldn't see a subtle plan if it painted itself purple and danced naked on top of a harpsichord, singing "Subtle plans are here again!"
Person: I mean, for heaven's sake! What can I possibly do with a girl that I can't do with you, eh?
Cyril: I cannot conceive.
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Random innocent: Mr. B! Where's the milk of human kindness?
Cyril: It's gone off, dear. It stinks.
" If any part of me inside is dead I'm a moving corpse, if the outside dies we are both done for, but if it lives I do too, and if I act as if I live on the outside... The dead enigma inside of me laughs in its deep and bloody grave. "
" See how the game of life is playing all of us for fools
Dancing a string around us, making all these silly rules
See how he looks down on us like we're acting out a show
Throw the dice and let's see which head will roll... "
" That would be a good thing for them to cut on
my tombstone: Wherever she went, including here,
it was against her better judgment. "
" Happiness makes up in height for what it lacks in length. "
" Home is the place where, when you have to go there, they have to take you in. "
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" Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,.........................................
.............................................And that has made all the difference. "
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Ever on and on I continue circling
With nothing but my hate in a carousel of agony
Till slowly I forget and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenly I see that I can't break free--I'm
Slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony
To tell me who I am, who I was
Uncertainty enveloping my mind
Till I can't break free, and
Maybe it's a dream; maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldn't mean a thing if I told you how I feel
So I'm tired of all the pain, of the misery inside
And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night
You can tell me what to say; you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care, and my heart would never know
If I make another move there'll be no more turning back
Because everything will change, and it all will fade to black
Will tomorrow ever come? Will I make it through the night?
Will there ever be a place for the broken in the light?
Am I hurting? Am I sad? Should I stay, or should I go?
I've forgotten how to tell. Did I ever even know?
Can I take another step? I've done everything I can
All the people that I see I will never understand
If I find a way to change, if I step into the light
Then I'll never be the same, and it all will fade to white
Ever on and on I continue circling
With nothing but my hate in a carousel of agony
Till slowly I forget and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenly I see that I can't break free--I'm
Slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony
To tell me who I am, who I was
Uncertainty enveloping my mind
Till I can't break free, and
Maybe it's a dream; maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldn't mean a thing if I told you how I feel
So I'm tired of all the pain, of the misery inside
And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night
You can tell me what to say; you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care, and my heart would never know
If I make another move there'll be no more turning back
Because everything will change, and it all will fade to black
If I make another move, if I take another step
Then it all would fall apart. There'd be nothing of me left
If I'm crying in the wind, if I'm crying in the night
Will there ever be a way? Will my heart return to white?
Can you tell me who you are? Can you tell me where I am?
I've forgotten how to see; I've forgotten if I can
If I opened up my eyes there'd be no more going back
'Cause I'd throw it all away, and it all would fade to black
Set fire to the night, we’ll make the world jump by surprise
It’s going down, I feel so damn good, running on the reflections
Go on, you’re up then back down, been around but haven't begun!
Yes, yes, we've heard internal monologues and emotional spiel wrote:You see, I'm what they call a living being, an alive contradiction. Flying one moment, falling the other.
I find my perfections like a unique individual, as all of you do... I find the earth beneath and dig and dig and dig, pouring salt over my wounds at break time to scare away the internal monsters that sting me with their hissing breathes. But, it's all cool. I mean, that's what life is... Ice cream, and flowers, the lull of sleep, good relationships, kisses, existential criseses, you know, the usual... day to day melancholy... Jokes! Who doesn't deflect horrendous things with humor anyway?
I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting tired and I need someone to rely on
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
"Every family has a story to tell. Welcome to ours."
