
N a m e;
Shelia.
G e n d e r;
Female.
Don't go... Journal Entry one
" I laid i the dirt. Here's a little toast to leaving me all on my own. I was all alone. I never understood why. I wish I did. One night, we had a bonfire. We were laughing, and enjoying our night out. When I sat up. Sparking flame in my cave.Memorize, in their lies. The look in their eyes. We were laughing, and telling jokes. When out of the blue a group of Kiamara's had arrived where our fun was at. I looked around, running to m mother. She held me close. While my father attacked, my mother took my sibling, and me and ran off. While one of them followed us.
I widened my eyes. They didn't leave us. They didn't abandon us in the dirt. I was in shock, I blamed them the whole time. It wasn't them, it hadn't been them this whole time. They tried to protect us.. They didn't want to leave us. They didn't have much of a choice at this point. Keeping us alive, and sacrificing themselves..Our mother placed me and m sibling in a hole in a tree, such as the roots. She turned and took off running before the other Kiamara came towards her. When I heard a scream. I started to cry. I had to get to her, I couldn't let her die. I head a loud roar from my father. I didn't know what to do. I was scared, and shaken. No comfort. No mother, or father.
I laid in my cave. My home. In shock and fear. I snuggled up in the corner. Me and my sibling never got along. And the swore I wasn't related to them. But I see it now, I see the truth. As tears were coming down my cheeks. I closed my eyes tightly, I didn't want to move anymore. I felt sick, and I didn't feel right anymore. What else could I do.. It was to late. Maybe if I was older, I could have saved them. But never, again.. I will never be able to free myself now. I ran out to the entrance of the cave. Looking up to the stars. Our parents now at rest up there. Their spirits above us, watching us carefully. Oh, I just can't fall asleep without you.. Don't go, I can't do this on my own.. Don't go..."
Queen For a Day... Journal Entry two
"I was tired of being walked on. Treated like trash. And told I was nothing. It was ove. I wasn't going to let it happen this time. Enough is enough, its done. It surely brought me and them pain. But me a lot of fame. Wow I remember it like it was yesterday. It was a great day for me. When I burned down their lives. I ran into the school, and I took out my anger on them. I was tired of begging, pleading, and asking for mercy. It was done. I walked in school, on a mission. I went up to my bullies, and knocked them out. I started a revolution. Everybody stood up cheering. And attacked their demons, their bullies. I didn't let them walk on me again. I was told violence wasn't enough, but it was. It shaped me for who I was now. I have tried more then once with words, so I had to use my fists. Quite sorry my dear, you told me to think about it so I did. And I chose the wrong path, but it worked for me in the end. So now, i'm living like a queen. Everybody kissing me feet and worshiping me, not you, deary."

January 7th, 2010 wrote:{ Hi Journal!
Today is Jan. 7, 2010 and I'm really excited to go outside and play. My brother said it was gonna snow today and I've never ever seen snow before! I was told that it's cold and not fun, but you can also make things out of the snow! Like snowmen or any other creature you want, also igloos, and silly snow angels. What isn't fun about that?! So as I write this, I look outside and wait to see some snow. I wonder how much snow we will get, I hope it's a lot...wait! I think I see some snow!! Those white specks falling from the sky? Wow, It's so cool. It kind of looks like this: ❄
Well, I'm gonna go play in the snow now, bye!!
xx -Adei (Adeipho)
January 7th, 2014 wrote:{ Hello again, Journal,
Today is Jan. 7th, 2014. Everyone is talking about how it's going to snow today. I really hope it does because I'm quite fond of the snow. Unfortunately I'm not here to talk about snow today in this journal entry. I want to tell you that I found out I'm gay, I just have no interest in girls at all. Although I think I'm the more dominant one in the relationship, haha. I haven't told anyone yet, but I just felt the need to get it out here before anywhere else. I really trust you, journal, you've been here for me for many years now. So I just want to say a quick thank you for always being there for me and helping me when there is no one else around. Thanks.. x
xx -Adei (Adeipho)
(p.s. it just started snowing... ♥)
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dEar JournaL, 2daY waz very eXcitng! i got My firSt lOng teeth in! It is very big AND verY pointy, but my Brother makes fun cuz i only has 1 riGht now. but i Don't care, i'm very pRoud and caN not wAit to uses it!”
«Jour•nal__En•tree__2»“ March 24, 2014
Dear journal, today was another messed up day. As usual I lost my temper and got into a fight.. ma and pop and are not happy with me at all right now, but who cares. I'm not going to sit idly by and let someone make fun of me. Others just don't understand, they can't understand; just like I can't help that my moods change so often or that I can not handle large crowds and stuff like that. But what gets me is that not only do they not understand but most don't even try to sympathize. My plans to escape to the woods is almost complete, out there I don't need to worry, out there I'm at peace. Operation 'Live Free' is soon to be under way.”
Dear journal,
the world is a scary place and I wish someone would’ve warned me.
But nah, in all seriousness, hey.
Big bro gave me this journal as my birthday present. Something about “writing helps you deal with your emotions!” or something like that, blah blah blah.
Guess I should probably say something about myself.
I’m Shiloh! S-H-I-L-O-H, not! S-H-I-L-O. That last H is important, and don’t you forget it!
I’m 13 years old. I live with my mom and dad, and my big bro.
They’re all pretty cool, I guess. Dad works a lot, and my mom stays around to look after us.
Big bro is two years older than me. He’s one of the ~*cool*~ kids in his class.
We hang out a lot though! He likes to take me on adventures. We have a forest behind our house, and we go explore there all the time.
If you go far back enough in there, there’s a creek that goes on forever! Sometimes we play in it, but not often, because mom gets mad when we come home dirty.
When we're there, I like to take home animals... Not big one! No deer or wolves or anything, but small ones! Like birds, or frogs, or bunnies.
Dad gets annoyed when I do it (he complains that I'll catch diseases and get sick...), but I need to make sure the animals stay safe. The forest is so big and scary, and they deserve to be protected.
The other day, I brought home a baby bunny with a broken leg. I've been keeping her in my room and helping her to get better. Her name is Penelope! She's been looking better since I brought her here. I think she's happy here...!
Ah...! Mom is calling me down for dinner! I better go now. (We're having burgers for dinner, mmmmm.)
I'll try my best to keep writing here. And, well, who knows? Maybe this will help me.
Regards,
Shiloh.
Wow... Hey, journal. It's been years, hasn't it? Mom was cleaning out my room with me; I'm getting ready to leave for college! Isn't that great? But, like I was saying, we were going through my room, and found you!
I can't believe so much has changed since I picked up this journal for the first time... And I ended up writing in it pretty faithfully, too!
Hmm, where to pick up...
A year ago, big bro finally left for college. I was dreading that day so much... But it all went well, actually. There was crying and smiling when he left, of course; It was bittersweet for the whole family.
He's really happy there, and he still comes down to visit every holiday.
Don't tell him, but sometimes, I still go down to the creek, dip my paws in, and think about the fun we had. That's sappy, ain't it? Oh well.
Penelope is still happy and healthy, I'm glad to report! She's getting old, so she's slowing down a lot more, but she's still as bubbly as ever.
Oh, and that reminds me! I got accepted into college! I never would've thought I'd make it this far. I'll be studying to be a vet!
All those years of going into the forest and helping animals made me really what I want to do with my life.
On one hand, I'm scared... and VERY nervous... But, on the other, I'm so excited! It'll be a great experience. AND I'll get to do what I love most: help animals.
I already have a job lined up for me there, too. I'll be working in the campus library! Simple enough, and there's not much work to it. I get to be surrounded by books, and be in a quiet atmosphere so, hey, win-win.
Journal, you got me through a lot of rough times. Looking through all that I've written since big bro gave me this journal... I can tell I've gotten better. My life has gotten better.
Thank you for being there for me, and thank you for listening when no one else would.
Sincerely yours,
Shiloh.










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