It would be a mistake to go. It always was, every time.
That was, of course, why he went anyways.
He was a fool. A complete and utter fool who Haraka seemed to have wrapped around her paw. But he couldn't help it. Haraka had seemed so genuinely upset when she'd quietly approached him, slipping into the Healer's Den on one of the few occasions that all of the others - Mzatamo, Msaliti, and Ua - were all out and about. The pitiful look on her face as she begged him to meet her that night was one he simply could not deny.
Now, he was waiting for her when he was meant to be sleeping. Was this just going to be a waste of time? Was there any point waiting around? What if she didn't even show up?
"Thank you for coming," the words were barely audible, but Cuore managed to catch them.
He turned around to see Haraka staring at her paws. "Of course I came," was all he could think of to say. "I was starting to think
you weren't coming, though."
The red and gray lioness shrugged. "I was having issues leaving camp. Maji was on guard duty, and she would have wanted to know where I was going if she'd seen me. I had to go the long way 'round to get by without her noticing."
"She does tend to get a bit nosy." Sure, Cuore considered Maji to be a close friend, but that didn't mean she couldn't be a pain in the rear sometimes.
After that, they both stood there for a few minutes in awkward silence, neither prepared to be the first one to speak. What were they even meant to say? Cuore certainly didn't know; he didn't even know why Haraka had wanted to meet with him again. It'd been at least a moon since she'd last asked.
Haraka suddenly sighed. "I hate you."
If Cuore could have raised an eyebrow, he would have. "You have me sneak out to meet with you just so you can tell me that?"
She scowled, but besides that, ignored his interruption. "You make things confusing. Things were so simple till you came and mucked everything up."
"What's that meant to mean?"
"No one is supposed to care about me and what I do. Even Nasaba, who invited me into the group, doesn't
really care what happens to me." Cuore wasn't certain he agreed with her assessment, but let her continue, knowing there was no reason to get hung up on the small details. That wasn't why they were there. "But then you had to come around and suddenly someone is telling me off when I'm reckless. Calling me out on my crap. Suddenly, someone is actually...
concerned about me."
Cuore's tail swished back and forth. "Well, it
is my job to help take care of the pride. Your reckless behavior uses up valuable medical resources that we might need in an emergency but won't have because of your stupid decisions."
"Is that the only reason you're concerned?" Haraka's eyes were narrowed and her ears were pinned back against her head as she pawed at the ground in front of her.
"You're infuriating," Cuore responded instead. "I never know what you want from me. You love me? You hate me? You don't care? I can't read your mind, Haraka. Yes, of course I care. I wouldn't scold you so much if I didn't."
He was surprised when she suddenly closed the distance between them, brushing up against him. The gentle smile on her face was so unlike her that he couldn't help smiling too. With his eyes closed, he was able to imagine for a moment that maybe, just maybe, things would stay like this.
"This isn't going to last," he said after a few moments, pulling away from Haraka.
She opened her eyes, and her tail drooped as she mewled, "No, it's not."
Cuore chuckled bitterly. "Why do we do this to ourselves? Why do we keep fooling ourselves by doing this? I don't know how you feel, but this only ends up hurting me in the end."
"I do love you," she said, sitting down beside him.
"Somehow, I still believe that."
"Maybe one day, it'll work out. One day when we're both not quite so stubborn."
Cuore sat down, and Haraka followed suit, leaning her head against his shoulder. "That will be the day."
He could feel Haraka purring against him. "If you weren't constantly telling me to be more careful..."
Cuore playfully nudged her. "Not now."
"Alright."
Tonight, let us both be someone else, he thought,
someone who isn't too stubborn to accept their love for the other at the cost of their pride."Is that really why you asked me to meet you?" Cuore asked finally as he stared up at the stars.
He didn't look, but knew she shook her head because it was still resting against his shoulder. "I...I just needed someone to be with me. Sometimes, it gets a little lonely not caring."
Cuore intertwined his tail with hers. "Maybe that's a sign you should stop. Stop pretending you don't care. I know, some of our pridemates are annoying.
Believe me, I know. You don't know annoying till you hear Kokoto cry over getting a splinter out of his paw, only to immediately begin praising himself for being so brave once it's out." That got a chuckle from the lioness at his side. "But Kusafiri is short-tempered, and plenty of the pride still likes him, and he doesn't even often involve himself in the affairs of others. Maybe you ought to try not pushing everyone away."
"Maybe."
They both knew she wouldn't change. Neither of them would, at least not now. When they returned to camp, it would be like this night - and all the previous ones - had never occurred. Even tonight, Haraka had barely allowed Cuore near her heart; she still didn't lay it bare for him to see, though he supposed he didn't let her see his either. They both had secrets from each other that kept them from letting anyone get to close. Still, for tonight, Cuore didn't want to think about that.
For tonight, he was just another leopard, and Haraka was just another lioness. Two strangers, passing the time together underneath the stars. Cuore gently rested his head atop Haraka's, unsure if she was still awake. Yes, tomorrow things might return to normal, but he could at least savor tonight.
Tonight, they both were somebody else.