by Panic! » Tue Aug 08, 2017 3:37 pm
This is weird. I'm logging onto Chicken Smoothie for the first time in probably a year and everything feels so different and yet so familiar. I am going through old RPs that have stuck to me this day like one bullet, r i o, and one on ones that started friendships. These RPs are still being played through my head at night sometimes. I still plan it out and think about it, thinking, 'Damn. I was really part of this cool writing experience and now it's gone.'And it's weird because I feel so disconnected from this life. I don't think I've posted anything in over 3 years. Yet, Chicken Smoothie has definitely shaped who I am as a person and as a writer and I am forever grateful. I don't think I will ever had time to write again, not here at least. But I will say that it has stuck with me and I miss it dearly.
I wish I had kept dying rps going, and I wish I stayed connected with all the friends I've made here. I am sad that some of my profiles are formatted weirdly on my new computer, or images are no longer available. But I remember what they looked like and what pictures were there, so I guess that's what really matters. And what really matters is that I'm writing this post for myself with no intention of sharing it with anyone else and that's okay. I am just happy that I am posting something after so long of quietly lurking around the dark corners of this website. I'll be keeping my eye on you, Chicken Smoothie. And I miss you.
take pride in what is sure to die.