by microraptor » Thu Mar 08, 2018 1:32 pm
dear h.c.,
yo, what’s up dude? how are you? i just wanted to tell you that you’ve honestly made my 2017 & 2018 a lot better. hopefully you don’t realize it, but i think i might have feelings for you?? maybe not, but i’m just not sure right now. every time i look at you, i smile. if you pay any attention when we talk, you’ll have to had noticed that. youre such a great friend to me and you’re so funny, honestly. i don’t agree with your sense of humor when it comes to some things, but hey, it’s all good. you’re just so random. and you’re so soft. like, you just seem like someone i could see myself feeling safe with. i never expected to become your friend, let alone have potential feelings for you. you used to be my sister’s very very best friend, and now you guys don’t even talk. she used to think it was weird for you and i to talk. i didn’t get it because she had always wanted me to be friends with you guys. anyway, i remember in late 2016, before i dated d, you and i sat down and we just talked. for a really long time about really serious things. you weren’t feeling great and i just wanted to help. you said i made a lot of sense and that i did help. you didn’t see me as just my sister’s little sister, but you saw me as a person. all her other friends didn’t see me that way. you were the first and i really do thank you for that. we were both at a really bad time in our lives. anytime i was off by myself, you went and checked on me. you were always so nice to me and it might’ve not seemed like a lot, but it meant so much to me. even at the beginning of this school year, we were talking about these things, you know? i’m at a much better place now, and all you really want to do is party. speaking of that, you do have feelings for this one girl. youve had feelings for her for years. but you won’t take a shot because she doesn’t like partying. she hates it and you don’t want to give it up. i doubt you two even talk anymore to be honest, but i could be wrong. regardless, you’re being dumb. you could take your chance but you just don’t want to give it up. i don’t get it. i hope you’ll make better decisions in the future though. after may, you’re gonna just move on with your life, with your actual friends. youre just going to disappear and i won’t ever see you or talk to you again, so i just wanted to thank you for being such an awesome dude. you made my year a lot better. thank you, h.