ok this is totally abt those salts i got over the cs confessions blog
except i dont have the energy to elongate my thoughts bc im still as sick as a dog
i think this is a good opportunity to expand on my thoughts regarding my art just so that no ones got a reason to put words into my mouth
ok heres the quote for reference's sake
It took me roughly 10 seconds to send that message in so no time was really wasted, and I'm frankly already better than you so please don't make me laugh with that "outdo me!!!" [expletive]. I sent it in because I think it's unfair that your 'uguuu x3 nyaaa anime' scribbles get more attention than they deserve simply because children think chibi anime art is the pinnacle of creativity.
first of all drawing is just 1 of several hobbies, i dont spend that much time on it relatively speaking
ive spent much longer doing writing for example while art's always been a kinda on/off thing for me that i do for fun
second of all yea my art on cs is totally overrated, ur point? i dont think it deserves a fraction of the attention it gets either but for some reason this anon was REALLY BUTTHURT abt it when i tried to tell them to spend their time doing something more productive than throw salt my way. what are u trying to gain from harassing me, a person whos literally done nothing to u.
from the way the anon's reply was worded its pretty easy to tell that this person has a) nothing better to do and b) is probably significantly younger than me
let me tell yall a truth here: i dont really give a hot crap abt being featured on cs. its not really that impressive of an accomplishment to me at all because i dont exactly respect most of the people on this site- and not even really the staff. getting a compliment from someone is nice and i appreciate the stuff ppl say about my art but i can so clearly smell the weird clique-y-ness off of a lot of the comments i get. that, and well. staff is weird to me. i think im older than a good portion of the cs mod team and sometimes i can just... tell? not to say that me being older really MEANS anything but- it just baffles me, the logic behind some of the things they do. makes no sense to me. and i dont respect rules that dont make sense to me. i understand the staff is merely doing their job but that doesnt change the fact that i have a grievance with the system itself, if that makes any sense.
like it feels like... a lot of rules are in place just to placate the youth, or otherwise avoid problems that i feel like should be actually handled in some kind of constructive way. but maybe thats just me? it isnt like gaia mods get on ppls' butts abt having controversial discussions. you block n go. simple. but gaia is a much older userbase than cs so i figure its just expected that people take care of their own business
anyway thats a tangent. from my pov, the drama and weird unnecessary saltiness on the confessions blog is all extremely juvenile to me. its like the middleschool mean girls experience i never got - hell i didnt even get it while i was in highschool. im going to assume youre younger than me, anon, because i find it extremely hard to believe that someone college age would be immature enough to do this kind of stuff-- but then again, i mean its totally possible that you are and youre just.. i dunno, exceptionally emotionally stunted i guess?
getting an ask like that rly puts my life into perspective. im fondly reminiscing abt the years when i was like, maybe 16? or something? when i actually gave a crap about what anons said about me. man! have times changed! now im sitting here looking at that ask like ... i cant believe this... imagine being so carefree that youd send anon salt! meanwhile im sick, worried about getting a job, worried about my degree plan, worried abt my boyfriend moving out, worried about my brother's autism, worried about graduating college in <6 years before im taken off my parents' insurance... to think anons ever bothered me at all is a testament to how much ive grown up in the time btwn now and 2013 when i graduated hs
also >
I'm frankly already better than youi just have to wonder! why even bother sending me salt if you honestly believe this
look, you probably are better than me at art. i dont think im that good or anything. but stooping to this level of pettiness doesnt do you any favors kiddo. why are you telling
me youre better than me, as if u gotta prove it
anyway the real reason why i bring this up is uhhhhhh crap. to summarize my other thoughts abt some other issues regarding this- its a waste of time to do this to me bc im too old, sick, tired, to really give a crap, but if this anon's sending ME stuff, i have to wonder who else they've wrongfully targeted? especially younger cs users who DO care about how their peers see their art. i could have just left this anon alone bc really all im doing is wasting my own time (albeit for my own enjoyment haha) on writing replies/responding to them but
i think this brings up a larger issue abt how unnecessary vitriol from anons can really damage the esteem of younger users. i bolded it bc this is the important part.
IF YOU DONT READ ANYTHING ELSE READ THIS
i am an adult who has grown up on the internet, but my experience is very different than the experiences of youngsters today. back in my day, communities were very closed-off and you had kind, supportive, tightly-knit groups of people all encouraging eachother. but now i think the climate has changed- especially with social media on the rise. younger and younger kids are becoming more and more common on the internet and i think it's part of adults' responsibility to mediate the kind of content these kids are exposed to. im not saying that we need to make the internet squeaky-clean sterile, bc that goes against the entire philosophy of the internet belong to everyone, but i think in places such as cs we should take care in the words we say and the things we do, because 10 seconds of writing anon hate may lead to weeks worth of self doubt on the receiver's end. and i cannot condone, will not condone that kind of negativity being spread. go ahead and send me as much nonsense as you want, but don't you dare do this to someone who's actually vulnerable.anyways thanks for the comment tho, im getting quite a bit of mileage out of it. and do know that im willing to keep this nonsense going as long as ur willing to reply to me, bc lys is really petty and thinks this is kinda fun
