by King Andre » Thu Apr 20, 2017 5:49 pm
why do you make my life so difficult?
I want to like you. You're sweet and kind.
You've been nothing but a genuinely nice person to me for as long as I've known you.
You've stuck up for me when no one else would. And I've done so for you. We understand each other.
And if im being quite honest, I don't fault you for a lot of the things other's condemn you for.
Being the devils advocate I am, I'm not as quick to judge. And I pride myself on that quality.
But you have a problem. You've become vindictive, and manipulative, and fluctuating in your moods.
(or maybe you always were...)
I want to ask if something is wrong, personally. Because i know that perhaps, there's a reason for everything.
And i'm sure there is one. But as close as I'd like to believe we were, I don't think I can ask that. Because I suppose
part of me fears being just another victim of your disdain. I suppose, I did consider you a friend, and maybe, unfortunately
a small part of me always will. I'm loyal to a fault. But we don't talk as much. And I don't talk to you like i'd talk to a real friend, I never have. I suppose I've always been careful about that.
But you don't feel the distance, do you? You know, you've indirectly given me many headaches. But maybe that's not your or my problem, but their's.
But. You also hurt the person closest to me. I don't know if it was before or after you told me how much you valued her. And I really don't care. That's not something I'm willing to overlook.
But I guess I don't completely hate you.
More so, I pity you, and I'm worried about you. How many bridges will you burn until you're completely stuck?
All of them, I'm betting.
If nothing ails you then you're the worst type of person, and I hate to say that I've associated with the likes of you.
But If you really do need help then...