"You know, you're more caring than you give yourself credit for," Lilith said, humming a bit at the end as she let her arms fall to her sides, after she had reached them up in a stretch.
"I do what I have to do," Jason answered from his place on the couch, his eyebrows raising a bit as he spoke. His eyes were fixed somewhere on the ground as she stared off, supposedly at nothing.
"No, you do what you think you have to do," Lilith corrected, turning her body where she stood, looking down at him. "You always have a choice, and you chose to do this. You chose."
The young man nodded, pursing his lips for a moment as he looked to the ground, then up at the woman across the room from him. There were several seconds of silence, while both people just stared at each other. Thinking, perhaps. Finally, Jason spoke;
"And what did I choose, exactly?" He asked, standing, meeting Lilith's gaze.
She turned to face him a bit more directly, angling her body so that they stood parallel to each other. They were metres away, and an empty floor lay between them. Lilith wanted that distance to be shorter, so she took a step forwards.
"The right thing," she answered, her chin angling up as she spoke.
A smile stretched across Jason's face, while her own stayed emotionless. "And what is the 'right thing'?" He asked, mirroring her movements and taking a step closer.
"What people and society generally accept as normal and good behaviours to practice," she told him, moving closer yet; he did as well.
"That's it?" He pried. "Just what everyone else thinks, the general population? What about what I think is right?"
"Listening to your morals may also help you determine what is right and what is wrong, alongside the integrity of your character." He took another step forward as she spoke.
"So, the 'right thing' is just what other people accept, and what you accept alongside them? The 'right thing' is just something that was all agree is well, an action performed in good-faith?"
"That is correct," Lilith confirmed. They were getting so close, only a little more than a metre away from each other, and she took yet another step. "But the right thing also depends on the person," She explained. "You've got to make decisions with both your head and your heart to do the right thing."
And he took the last step. The two of them stood chest to chest, their faces only inches apart. "What if my head is saying it's wrong," he asked, his voice growing quiet; now that he was so close, there was no need for him to speak loud. "But my heart says it's right? Who should I trust?"
Lilith stared up at him, studying the details of his face. After a moment, her eyes landed on his. "Depends," she started.
"On what?"
"On which answer you like better..." She breathed, glancing down a moment, away from his eyes. When she looked back up, however, their gazes locked, and for several seconds, it was just a silence. A very tense silence.
And then he kissed her. Lilith had kissed someone before, it was nothing new, but this felt like the first time. Whoever said that it felt like fireworks wasn't joking, because it did. Lilith felt like her chest was on fire, and it was shooting out sparks of pure, burning desire.
You might expect something powerful here, but it wasn't a deep kiss. It was lengthy and sweet and longing. Longing for more, longing for it to last. In that moment, Lilith had never loved someone so much; but even just the thought felt like a punch in the gut. So she pulled away.
One of her hands lay on his the back of his neck and the other on his head, and his arms were wrapped around her waist like they had been hugging. But their foreheads did not rest against each other's, and their eyes did not meet. The emotions that hung in the air were not good ones.
"Lilith?" Jason breathed. His voice was rough and raspy and laced with concern. Why had she ended their moment like that? What was wrong? "Lilith, are you alright?"
It took her several seconds to answer. For a few, she looked like she considered not answering at all. "I was a fool to believe..." she whispered. There was more silence as Jason waited, filled with a sense of sudden dread and anticipation, for her to continue. "I was a fool to believe that I could pretend I didn't feel anything, I was a fool to believe that I didn't care."
She stepped back, looking at the ground, her arms falling to her sides. When she spoke, her voice was pained and frantic. "I was a fool, Jason! How could I have believed, even for one moment, that I didn't feel anything? That this wouldn't happen? I should have known, Jason. I should have known."
Jason was quiet. "You should have known what?" He asked; slowly, carefully. Should he be frightened? It didn't matter whether he should or shouldn't. He was.
She waited a moment before she spoke. "I should have known that I couldn't get out of this without falling for you," she breathed. Lilith hadn't known it was possible to put so much emotion in one sentence, but she felt it, and Jason felt it. They both felt every single bit, like tiny shards of glass digging into their hearts. She couldn't take the silence anymore.
So she turned
And she left
And she didn't look back.
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Starring;
Lilith, yet another character of mine. Lilith is also originally from The Beyond, like many of the other characters introduced here. She is a bit of a bad girl; flirty, smart. She's got the attitude and the attire, as I like to say. But she didn't get quite what she had bargained for when she met Jason.
Jason, or Ragnar, is a character created by, once again, AthenasArtz. And, once again, again, is from the Roleplay, The Beyond. He's generally a quiet kind of guy, and didn't like Lilith much at first. But things went further... and further... and ended up somewhere I don't think either of them anticipated.
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