Once again, my stupid emotions put me in pain. Sooo, I started liking this guy at my school... uh... and I guess my love life must suck really bad, because haha, my friend started going out with him. Now I have to pretend I like no one, because I’m not going to pretend to like someone else. Today, I went to the mall with my friend (whose dating my crush) and my crush himself. I spent so much time talking to him and he did the same back to me... but his girlfriend sort of, didn’t talk at all. She was just silent, sort of too scared to talk?
Over the past few weeks, I’ve gotten to talk to my crush so many times, we’re really good friends and we understand eachother very well and have talked a lot. I was going to open up to him... but he told me his crush before I told him it was him... and his crush was my friend, so I backed out.
I’m not sure what to do. My friend needs support within the relationship, as it’s going downhill, because she’s too embarrassed to talk to him, but I’m afraid I’ll start losing his company. I sound so selfish. I’m not saying that I want to know if he likes me back, obviously only as a friend because he’s going out with someone already, but I can’t keep my emotions bubbled up forever, right? I don’t know what to do. They’re both really good friends of mine and I’m so scared I’m going to lose them, but I don’t want to keep my emotions to myself forever. I mean I cant tell any single one of my other friends, because I know they’ll tell... so I’m so stressed and unfocused and confused about everything right now.
Emotions are so hard. I hate them so much, they kill me. :<