lupophobia wrote:lupophobia wrote:i want someone to comfort me and tell me it's going to be ok
but there's no one who can do that and
even then.. i don't know if i'll believe them
i can't talk to my parents about how terrible i feel and how much i feel like crap
or they'll go "get over it" or "well it was your grandmas fault and we can't go back"
i didn't want to move houses. i didn't want to lose my progress and my friends and everything i started
maybe i should just stop trying alltogether because we're gonna move again someday,
considering we're in a rental house
i want to talk to someone about this
and feel better about it
and feel
accepted, and loved, and appreciated, and wanted
is that too much to ask for? to have a friend who actually cares and listens for a little while?
i'm just such a bad person
not as in my talents are bad or i'm useless but
my personality is completely jacked and makes it basically impossible to make friends or even keep friends
"oh, way to jaiden up your life!!" THATS A LEGIT SENTENCE I HAVE HEARD
i don't know why or how this hole got so deep. i want to get out of it
i got out of it once, i can do it again, right???
right???
i wish i could go back to being silly and making jokes to cover up how bad i'm hurting
instead of crying and typing it all up on my phone
i wish i could talk to my parents about it and not get a response like "oh well too bad. don't care go away, can't do anything about it."
i want to die in all honesty. that jsut sound alike a reward right nowcan we still quote things? i hope so bc here i go..
i hate to clog up the corner tbh but i'm just so stressed and upset. sorry again