TheComfortCorner | V.7

[Spearow]

so stressed out <_> having an anxiety attack

[leiawolfe]

Hello everybody! I always like to try my hardest to cheer people up or maybe even help them with whatever is bothering them. So if you'd like to PM me for anything, feel free!

[jellybutter]

my inbox is open for anybody. please pm me if you need help :)

[miss kobayashi]

just a little vent that I can't talk to my friends about because they'll tell her.

I got in the first (real) fight with my sister today. she was screaming at me and I was just taking it because i didn't know what to do. eventually the words came through one ear and out the other. when she was done, I was going to tell her my side of the story, but she ran off. what gives her the right to tell me what I did wrong if I can't do the same? she constantly bashes on my insecurities, and then the second i say something she doesn't like she does unbelievable things in front of my friends? I wish I could talk to someone but she'll hear about it so I just have to say quiet. I have so much anger and anxiety built up from all the times she's hurt me and yet I'm still the monster. I love her but she hurts me so much and then she acts like she's the only one suffering. I'm suffering too.

[Spearow]

my anxiety has been bad tonight, feeling really scared. and have to get up soon while it is almost 5am for me. <_> i just have a really bad feeling, my friend said something crypic earlier and it just sounded really dark? like something bad is going to happen and he won’t tell me what is going on. haven’t been able to sleep :c i just want to cry and forget everything and everyone. all life gives is pain

[hakuu]

did you bury her under the rock in your backyard and then move several
states away on purpose? that sweet cat didn't deserve your lack of attention to her.

[houndoom]

i wish i could describe what i felt seeing you not only ignored my texts for no reason for months in a row, not even bothering to reply to my holiday greetings, not to mention my void attempts at starting a conversation. and you deleted my number for absolutely no reason other than you felt the need to cut me off. the last time i talked to you i still believed you to be one of my best friends. but come to think of it, you didn't even care about me to begin with, so why am i surprised?
i wish everything i love wouldn't die.

[deimido]

this is going to be all over the place, sorry in advance.

i wish i wasn't so avoidant. but you might as well staple the word on my forehead, avpd has really kept me prisoner for as long as i can remember and every time i feel like i'm improving and working past it, it just grabs me by the arm and wanks me away from any smidgen of improvement i thought i made.

i wish forming relationships wasn't so difficult for me. i feel like i have to walk on eggshells all the time, because the looming fear of accidentally saying something wrong hangs over my head and it really impacts how close i can be with someone. i can't remember that last time i ever felt safe and comfortable talking with someone, every conversation i have ends me with thinking 'oh god, i messed it up again, they don't like me anymore.'

it's kinda sad how long it's been ever since i was able to genuinely believe that there were people out there who i knew appreciated having me around, and then i had to go and leave them roughly a year ago because behold and below! something happened on that site that i found too overwhelming for me to process and i decided my only option was to hide even though they had nothing to do with it. i haven't contacted them since. it's probably better this way anyway. i didn't deserve their kindness for as many years as we had been together. this proved it.

and now i feel like i'm ruining everything again. because i'm just an awful excuse for a friend and i hide away from people and places when things get too rough or me to cope with and i'm so painfully aware of how bad it is but i havent been able to successfully push past that yet and i'm trying my best to think of a possibility that i do become the kind of companion the people i speak to deserve, but i think that day will be a long way off.

i don't really need any responses to this, really. i'm just venting. it wouldn't be fair if anyone responded to me anyway? i've never been able to comfort anyone here in all the times i've posted on this thread unfortunately.

[skypoppy]

Cracked my phone :’) I literally can’t handle looking at it I hate cracks

[meeeeeeeedic]

I wrote this as a document one day,,,

Dear You,
You are just a thought in my head. But maybe that’s alright. Nobody knows you, and that’s okay too. We are small beings in a huge universe. This is what I believe. This is what I love you for. We’re going to change the world one day with our love. Not a “big deal” sort of love, but the love that is quiet, unaltered, almost secret but is known by hundreds. And to those of them that force us together like we aren’t already, then screw them, because they don’t understand us. We are quiet. And that’s fine.
Everyone is born with a pair of wings when they’re first born, and they learn to fly and touch the stars. When two Gems fuse by dancing, they never stop dancing. Everyone sees the world differently; therefore, there are seven billion different worlds in existence. I have galaxies growing inside of me, and stars in my eyes, and music in my head, and the golden flecks of dark blue and light yellow that flow freely through my bloodstream, and all the stories in my head are about to burst out like the seams of a pillow with the fluff inside -
And you make me happy. You are perfect. You are different and that’s amazing. In a world where everyone is out to get you and you feel like you’re the most hated out of them all, you find a way to be positive and still stay smiling. You are wonderful. Just because you have nightmares about the world around us doesn’t mean they come true. Don’t be afraid of that.
I love you to the ends of the Earth, to the far reaches of Home. You and I together make one, and you and I together make them. We shouldn’t be able to but that’s why it’s so refreshing. Because it’s impossible. And we can do it.
I’m sorry that I can never be there for you more than half an hour at a time.
I’m sorry that I’m not there at all.
You’re not real, and that kills me every time I think about you.