Let's call my crush D.
Agh... I feel like my crush's best friend (Imma call him S) is starting to suspect that I like D... Of course, I don't know... Guys are so confusing to me. Well, people in general are confusing to me. Anyway, I took way more interest in why D was upset today than I care to admit to anyone I know, and I feel like I made it super obvious to S. I'm afraid that if S finds out, he might tell D and i'd scare him away... D probably only considers me just someone that he knows about, not actually knows.
Continuing on... I felt kind of curious as to why D was so upset today... I almost asked him, but last time I asked him, he acted kind of surprised that I actually talked to him as if I cared... Maybe my sarcastic comments and introverted personality implied that I didn't care about him? Or maybe he felt awkward because he doesn't know me that well.
I still feel bad abut that one time that I sided with S (who, i forgot to mention, I can barely stand to sit next to.) on a stupid argument they were having about getting things on clothes. I remember specifically saying, (In a tone that could have sounded rude. Oops... it was more matter-of-factly that i'd have liked it to sound.) "Well, they do make washing machines for a reason."
And I also said once, after D said to the younger kid, "Why don't you grow up and actually do something for a change?" (This was on a seemingly bad day for him) "I bet most people could say the same to you." I have to admit that I felt really bad about that one. But when I say it, I can't really take it back, can I? I felt like defending the poor little kid, but in turn, I shut up my crush for the rest of the day...
Long story short, I have three points here.
I am afraid to let anyone know that I like D because then they might tell him.
How can I tell if someone thinks I like them/Thinks I like their friend (or vice versa. That would be good to know XD)
And, most of all, my social skills suck and I feel like I'm pushing my crush away rather than try to be friends with him.